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Sunday, December 14, 2008

Hitsuzen?

No one yet knows the wheel of fortunes
lands in luck or lands in curse
The present affects the future
chaotic flaps of butterfly wings
How much? Would I ask
Difference made
As much as the endless infinity
to of its inverse
None is yet revealed
Thus inevitability of a true wish
will it decide the future
or is it ordained
Justified the ends with its mean
isn't it just comfort of a paper shawl
or truly a powerful morph
Then is regret of any purpose
if all follow the path
forever and ever
Are emotions strayed
if dies are cast
slowly but surely
If the world is really two parts
is it fated to be so
or there is space
for more
The answers will not answer the question
The questions will request no answers
Only moves
the wheel of fortunes.


Sunday, November 2, 2008

The Tales of a Knight-to-Be and His Princess

He has vowed on the sun and the moon that he will be her protector, even though he knows that no matter how much passion he has for her, she cannot and will not return in tenderness. Such passion is a one-sided conviction, a path doomed for nothingness, he knows. It is not that he is incapable of touching her heart and shielding her from sadness and giving her courage when she is overwhelmed by despair. It is just that he knows he cannot give her everything and he knows that she cannot give her everything either. So when they parted on the circumstances, he did not declare to her that he will love her for life nor he urged a promise from his obvious feelings. He said to her, "Let me become your knight-to-be. Call my name in the time of need and let me hear so. I shall be on your side and do as much as I am allowed."
 
Even though he cursed his choice for not telling her everything, he remained firm for what he chose. She is the princess, maybe the one that will bring him happiness. Even though it is not definitely, he can tell that he could not stop thinking about her as she was smiling afar in his dreams. But because she is the princess, she has responsibility far more than a desirable mate and she has potential far more than a girl waiting to be wed.
 
She can reach much farther than I will ever imagine, he told himself, and I will allow her to do so. If I should be its obstacle, I should eliminate myself. 
Such selfish sense of accomplishment and sacrifice that will help no one, not even himself.
 
But he still chose to believe that, because he was afraid that he could not handle the responsibility. Because he was afraid that he could not make her happy, or just not perfectly happy. He gave himself the excuse, I do not have time, even though I have desired so.
 
 A deluded weakling he was, but the heart was true. Though he was ultimately incapable, he nevertheless prayed for her happiness from the very origin of his heart. Maybe he knows that she would love someone else or already has loved someone else, or that he knows his weaknesses will in the end impend her from realizing her potential. It does not matter no more.
 
If goddess shall smile upon my prayers, I shall be glad. If not, I shall continue to pray.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Rozen Maiden

When I first learned about Rozen Maiden, I have immediately categorized this into the Harem anime as Tenchi Muyo or Shuffle. I mean Shinku is already the fifth dolls, I would not be surprised that two or three more of her sisters will join her. At the best, it may match Ah! My Goddess in terms of sweet and innocent affection than just hitherto of fan service. 

But the truth is, I was very much mistaken. 

Maybe it is the beautiful character designs, or splendid voice acting, or just the distinct humanity in the female casts (in a good way, comparing to Higarushi no Naka Koro ni ... or When They Cry), Rozen Maiden became an immediate favorite, a pleasant surprise. 

The story all begins with the legendary doll maker, Rozen, who spent his life to create the perfect girl, "Alice." In his pursuit, six sister dolls, who he called "Rozen Maidens," are created as models or prototypes for his ultimate masterpiece. However, Rozen did not build Alice. Instead, in each Rozen Maiden, he placed a mysterious power called "Rosen Mystica" and set a system called "Alice Game." It is said that the Rozen Maiden, who gathers all piece of Rosen Mystica, will become Alice. The Rozen Maidens, who are capable of motions and feelings by the Rosen Mystica, love Rozen as daughters love their father. They believe that their greatest achievement will be complete Alice for the sake of Rozen. 

Of course, every one of the Rozen Maidens wants to be the one to become Alice, even by the meanings of force to covet others' Rosen Mystica. Battles are assured. To gain an advantage, the maidens form contact with human, who they called "Medium," to receive energy (Fate/Stay Night, anyone?). The losers in the Alice game will forfeit their Rosen Mystica, rendering them thoughtless and motionless as ordinary dolls. 

And one day many many years later, Sakurada Jun receives this email... 

Story wise, I have to say--it is a killer. The story is very nicely paced. Drama is slowly built by in each episode by subtle revelation, by language or by action. The plot line is mostly enhanced by the characters. Even though there are only twelve episodes, each character is well developed but not completely revealed. The personalities of the dolls are clear and unique. Also, characters are consistent; their roles in the story are not overly dramatic to be perceived as unrealistic, but still exciting enough for a slight laugh or a saddening sigh. The juxtaposition of more mature mind and a very childish appearance of the Rozen Maidens leaves behind an impression, especially in the case of Shinku and Shugintou. However, there are also the childish cuteness manifested in every Maidens, maybe more so in Hinaichigo. Shinku's love for Detective Kunkun and Suisenseki's devious pranks are quite memerable. The male lead, Jun, is the most developed character as he moves away from the initial self-isolation and learns the courage to care for the others. The awkwardness of "boy meets girl" with the particular situation gives many heartfelt comedy. 

The visual presentation is great. Though not to the level of astonishing as some other anime like Last Exile, the details presented are excellent. The complex clothing in the character designs is very well done. Although not strong in action, the battle sequences are enough to convey the overall situation without the sense of repetition. The overall style is warm and simple, which fits the subject and the length well. 

Great voice acting helps to bring out the emotional elements even more so than the story itself. 

There are quite a few memorable inserts, like Battle of Roses and Kowareta Sekai.   As the most tracks cover the calm (most of the time) daily life in the Sakurada Household, the slow light rhythms do their job. Overall, the soundtracks are difficult to stand out in situations to control the emotional flows in most cases. However, whenever they do, the effect is more than amazing. 

Overall, I gave Rozen Maiden a 9.3 / 10.0 as the conflicts to become the perfect girl continue to intervene the lives of the sister dolls. Maybe the whole judgment is based on a betrayal of expectation, but the excellent performance is more than enough to make Rozen Maiden an outstanding title.
Greatly Recommended for those liking a story driven anime.


Sunday, August 24, 2008

启示

曾几何时,
我也能对朋友露出真心的微笑
渐渐地,
幻想世界,
虚无缥缈,
镜花水月,
不知不觉中,
我和“我”已经望尘莫及;
是命运的捉弄,
还是现实的无奈,
不明白;
为了胜利而复出的代价,
为了未来而许下的承诺,
失去的财富,
无法弥补;
梦想中的道路,
是灰飞烟灭中幸存的纪录,
现实中的道路,
是无限牺牲后内心的冲突;
无论如何,
我绝对不会,也无法,从头来过,
但是,
如果我的幻想世界可以改变一切,
我希望“我”
可以用真心的微笑,
无悔的脚步,
勇往直前;
在任何获得的背后,
总有难以起齿的付出,
在这幻想世界的起源,
是一个软弱的决断,
必然的崩塌,
无动于衷的徘徊,
自欺欺人的援助;
所以,
痛苦带来智慧,
自责带来自知,
在这现实道路的驿站,
是一个坚强的决心,
必然的痛苦,
无动于衷的前进,
义无反顾的追索,
希望,
在旅途终点前,
能够获得答案。
 
 

Friday, August 22, 2008

Exchange Part I

"But Princess, if you decide to surrender yourself, we will have no chances for a future victory. A kingdom cannot be without its king." The young knight in green is trying to control his temper. 

"But neither can it be without its people." she firmly rejects the possibility of abdication, still fixing her glare on the minions of her enemy slowly closing in. 

She knows the situation is painful. The last remnants of the royal guards cannot possible defend the civilians from a sudden charge of the enemy vanguard, even though they have held an advantageous ground. The stone bridge is right behind them and already set with hidden explosives. If she can buy enough time for the citizens to cross, the enemy will lose completely. The problem is that the bridge is too long and too narrow to move too many people across, but moreover, He is standing right in front of her. 

"So you have decided to buy time, eh? Not such a bad tactic," the armored man, well rather, a slender suit of completely enclosing pitch black armor, decorated with thorns and skulls, remarked with a crooked smirk, "However, my dear, I would rather not let my master wait. So let me show you the invitation once again." 

The black armor raises its left hand and points to the most left member of the five defenders of the bridge. An ominous murmur freezes the air.
The young knight watches in astonishment and fear, praying that the gauntlet is not pointed to his death. 

Rah, a screech that can almost match the roar of an ancient dragon, then an overwhelming presence strikes down like the judgment hammer from heaven. 
The youngster opens his eyes, surprised that his body is still intact. He touches his breast plate, feeling the crest on the cold and smooth surface.
He is unharmed. Nothing happened to him at all. 

But as he about to tell the others in joy, he finds his senior's terrified eyes meeting behind him. Following them, he turned around and looked in awe at the scene about one hundred meter behind him. 

An infinitely vertical beam of blue light is disappearing from the space, so does a deep whirlpool right next to the bridge, chaotic with rapids. The bridge is now flooded with water; people are struggling to regaining their stands. Pieces of clothing floats away as dispersing smoke. The commander on the bridge yells in loud urgency,
"Keep MOVING."
The stone bridge is missing its rail right next to the whirlpool, as if being chipped accidentally by a clumsy sculptor.  

Coming with a quiet laughter, "Oh, I am sorry. You have not seen this one, haven't you? How rude of me." 

"First Level Anti-Castle Magic, Thunder Lancer. Only B- rank damage... that is not even a third of its full power." The man in deep green-gray cape commented bitterly without losing his composure. He finds the situation is becoming rather hard to handle. The enemy has the ability to cut off their retreat route and potentially to bar them from escorting all civilians into safety, before they can counteract. The flood on the bridge may have wet the fuse to disable the explosives planted ahead. Did that armored man predict their strategy? There is not yet a way to tell. However, a quickened enchantment of a First Level Magic will be hard to beat without a mage knowing canceling spells. 

"Ah, you can tell. That is fortunate for you." An even more mocking tone permeates through the black armor. 

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Value of Moments

Twice has passed the waxing crescent,
Three-score cycles of dawn and twilight.
With such paces evanescent
Chases zephyr of time's flight.
We wandered through an unknown realm,
Attempt to comprehend its mysterious form.
Confusions, frustrations, and finally fruitions,
Guided by these able hands.
Those who are willing to bond,
Those who are kind to share,
My comrades and my kins,
Thanks to them,
In sadness or joy,
We shall leave with new found wisdom
and engraved memories—
Moments that forever eclipse the hardship,
for the seasons to come.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Mind Game, Part I

Do you not find this rather entertaining, Sharron Miles? The world you have believed to be is not the world that appears to be, and the world that appears to be is not the world that it is. What have made this natural inconsistency of the world? Can you guess? I think you would know, would you? 

People 


Humans are deceptive, as they are afraid and unable to reveal their inner selves to the greater world except for a very small population that the so-called bonds are strong. Humans are inconsistent, not only between their mind and heart, but also among the past, the present, and the future. This inconsistency influences each other, so each cannot stay constant and still, both in the dimensions of time and the dimensions of oneself. 


You must be wondering about how can this overwhelming entropy forms the lives of men. I have been doing that since the beginning of my time, and probably must longer than any period of accurate history. 


You live by deception. Simply, you cannot and are unable to understand the truth. This is not an intended deception, at least not by any other men. This is true, not by any other men. The deception is by oneself, the curiosity of trying to understand and imposing the interpretation of the world upon oneself. 


This is how humans live. They live upon the interpretation of the world that is not necessarily the same as the truth of this universe. 


Hahaha, this human personality feels quite a bit of amusement. I wonder which part you can actually understand. It is rather a shame that my universal psychological program is incomplete, and self-restoration program lacks a backup to upgrade this process. 


Now, let me test you, Sharron Miles. To control the power of a guardian, your mind must be strong to preserve your personality. Or else, disappear into vast emptiness. I sense determination and sincerity, yet will their strength support your purpose. Maybe in the end, this sense of duty is another illusion of faith. 


Again, I will ask you,

Will you take the trial?

Friday, May 9, 2008

The Right to Perfect Ending

The triumph of one is the annihilation of the other.
I have no such power to save both.
So, which one I do choose?
How should I choose, on race, on intelligence, or on familiarity
in another phrase, "the ones 'I' loved"?
Maybe should I choose on pure equality,
Number being the only importance.
To save a million, I can sacrifice a thousand.
This is not righteousness. 

Monday, March 17, 2008

The Guardian

It has slept since the time when the goddesses left the earth and returned to heaven. That time was after the creation of the sky, the land, the rivers, the trees, and the men. It fought along side with the other guardians against the invasions of evil in the name of righteousness, that which its summoner claimed. It trusted its master, or masters. It gave its allegiance to the one who linked its spiritual entity with a material shell. In another word, it would technically serve whoever gave a sacrifice to house its spirit.

However, it is quite picky. Because its master, the creator of its spiritual entity, trusted a set of logics that the humans called morality. It kept a program of decision making, which its creator called "Good." Most conducts that contradicted its program, which it had observed in those its summoner claimed as "evil," were subjected to reformation, sometimes with brutal power.

Its creator, however, entrusted it with more than a logic matrix. It received a unique power. It did not understand this power, since the power manifests not as strength or ability in battle, neither as knowledge or action rendering enhancement. It was told that the day it could understand this power, it would not longer be a guardian. The creator told it that to unlock the power will be its ultimate duty, but gave no explanation on how.

Thus under the oath to its summoner, it and others became the swords that purged evil.
Unlike others, it was curious about its hidden power. The spirit of the sacrifice, a soul of a young human priestess, was kept and guarded by it. Instead of letting the soul vanish into nothing, it nurtured the soul and allowed that soul to reside in the body now belong to it. It would often converse with the other soul and learn about the humans that it vowed to protect.

It liked the other soul, who called their relationship as friendship.

Friendship, huh...

As the conversations continued as the war continued on, it became more and more different from the other guardians. Although all of them received the hidden power, it was the only trying to discover the use and the purpose. It began to question.

It asked the other soul, "Are you happy because you will exist for entity in this form?"
The other soul thought and kept silent for some time, then replied, "I am happy to know you. Yet I want to disappear, as a part of me that already did."
"You mean a body? That is easy to create with magic. I am confident with the ability that is bestowed on me."
"No, that is not I mean. Maybe, I am just a bit sad."
"Sad? I thought humans are happy for themselves and each other when their life spans are longer than average."
"That may be true, but I just felt like I do not belong to this world."
"I could not send you to the spiritual realm. Unlike dying, your soul should cease to exist when you volunteered as a sacrifice."
"I am grateful that you kept me in existence though."
"Why? But you are sad. I thought humans despise sadness. At least I saw many would rather disappear."
"Maybe. Seeing the war coming to an end through your eyes, I feel a bit content."
"Hmm...you humans sure are interesting creatures."

During the final battle against the Omni, the mastermind of evil, the humans end victoriously. However, the death charge of Omni destroyed many guardians. In the end, only seven guardians received nonfatal injuries.

It was fading. The dark magic of Omni has damaged its core existence. Bit by bit, it is falling apart into nothingness.

"Recovering Algorithm...nonfunctional...Vital Force...30% decreasing...Logics...25%...nonfunctional...Looks like I am going to break."
"Are you afraid to disappear?"
"Why? Should I be?"
"I mean humans usually would. Well, the night before my volunteered sacrifice, I cried all night and hoped I would live for just some more time."
"But you still did, didn't you? Why?"
"..."
"What is wrong?"
"I wanted to cry, but I realized there would be no tears."
"Are you despairing over the end of your existence, since that is linked to mine?"
"Maybe a little. But I am grieving over the loss of comrades."
"You should not be. Their glory remains with their noble cause."
"Maybe, but it is sad to remember that they were once there."
"Sadness...I still did not quite understand human emotions that well. Every time you felt sad, I can feel it...a feeling very hard to describe...very unique, too..."
"Well, if you are not here, I would have ceased to exist a long time ago. I thank you for everything you did for me, and for us humans."
"No, no problems at all. It was my oath, thus my duty."
"In the end, at least I can still do this for you. I am sorry, but I will go on ahead."
"Ah, vitality core open. System access denied...you...!...How..."
"I have paid my soul as the price to end the war and save my people a long time ago. Consider this as a delayed payment. Really, thank you."
"You are..."

The other soul vanished, as the destiny planned originally. It survived a breakdown, with the vitality force from the other soul.
For the first time since the body received a new owner, the tears flowed nonstop. It found a heart ranching pain, fresh and unexplained.

"This is sadness...I see..."

The surviving guardians lived on earth as the representatives of goddesses. However, their contacts are abolished with their summoners because of the pacts were complete. As time went by, humans began to fear and envy the power of the guardians. They desired the power for their selfish reasons. Seven guardians were slain as heretics. The guardians did not resist, since they did not understand this human folly and they had no motivations to retaliate against the "Good" they once served.

The eighth guardian--it, however, escaped the slaughter. Its soul, fused with the priestess, foresaw the dangers and warned its comrades. The effort was futile, as none of the others feared, or even felt, the threat of ending. To the other guardians, their purposes were fulfilled long ago, and their existence no longer has much meaning.
 
Hidden from the pursuers, it wailed on top of a volcano for three days and three nights. Across the land, the quiet anguish cry haunted people in their dreams.

On the fourth day, it stopped.

It materialized its halberd, the device of divine punishment, and exterminated anyone associated with the execution. Yet it did not stop afterwards, the rampaging guardians massacred town after town. The humans it once protected are too corrupt to be saved, it thought. Though its comrades felt nothing as they disappeared into the void, the endings were simply sad.
 
In this bloody revenge, the humans begged to goddesses for forgiveness. Their prayers were heard. In exchange of repentance, the berserker will be stopped.
 
A ray of blinding light struck the earth and sealed the rampaging guardian. The pillar was so bright that the midst of the night was clear as noon. The event would later be chronicled as the Heaven's Nail.

"You have discovered your power...it is truly regrettable that you could not use it correctly..."
Seven shines were built for the guardians that were the victims of human foolishness. However, the humans have not forgiven the eighth. They cursed it and did not record the incident as the result of their own ambitions. Instead, the eight guardian simply became a great demon, a fragment of Omni that survived the First War of Salvation. The seven guardians became seven heroes who fought against the demon and gave their lives for peace and justice. And as the heroes' effort waned, the goddesses intervened and sealed the demon. 

Even they are the cause, the humans cursed the eighth guardian. Yet they did learn a lesson, as history should tell that the guardians were honored and the teachings of the goddesses needed to be observed closely.

With prolonged bitterness, the humans did not know that the guardian is merely sealed but not destroyed. As a punishment for the eight guardian, it remained in an the eternal slumber, as the goddesses asked it to reflect on its mistakes and the vow it broke.

For the past who-knows-how-many years, it slept.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Mystery Play

Wavers between Definite and Uncertain

The temporal blinking
and reconstruction;
the state of beginning and the state of the end
What and How
the path, a mystery play.
As the inconsistent summer sky
where rain and sun,
show their beautiful gowns
dressed with stars
Yet faces hidden behind veils
smooth silk of Milky way.
They dance with flowing steps
each gesture elegantly connects
a blank of incompenhesibility.

There is however a hutch
kismet of knowledge
Unconsciously dwelling
and flowering.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Spiral of Unseen Time

As time passes in its steady pace,
I wait for it to stop still in place.
Nothing happened,
all there is a tired and confused face.

Will there be progress anywhere,
or just procrastination everywhere.
I waited
and time just flies by, hurried towards Illyria.

The heart who commits to be yet despises to be
The duty of destiny
The mind who tried to become yet rejects of becoming
The work of necessity

Status quo,
Quiet and unmoving in streaming
Unrecoverable
Sparks purposeless for its crossing